Life I Shall Give You.

This land should not be barren, love.
The rivers should not be dry.
They should flow.
Flow into this earth.
Flow through its curves.
Meet new places.
Merge with water.
Water to water.

Sigh... I have come unbound...

I'm... Wonderful.^^

There is this delicious secret...

Hush... I shall tell you when the time is right.:)

For now... let me be the solitary glutton.:)

What Plagues You?

Assuming is a frightening endeavour. Yet, I somehow know that I am the logical choice. And must we not Always follow logic? Yet if I am simply misconstruing, I shall allow Reality to be the final judge. This Love I have cannot be consumated. No exchange of commitments should be expected. I foresee agony...

I'm cutting its head off right now.

Yet...

Oh this Wanting...

Lucidity.

Ridiculous thought, he said, and now the weight of those chains are trying to hold onto my ankles- the once-before-obsessions now being the Obsessed- strange: they are no longer charming.

At times, a question tries to plague me- questions used to plague me all the time- but it dies halfway towards me or is pushed back before it even manages to radiate the emotion-feeding emanations- Now.

Sigh.. no, we don't have to take any of it seriously, my love. Your face is yet unformed, perhaps, unseen for now- but I am slowly retracing the steps to that place where I once drew your reflection- that of my own values- I have forgotten myself for a while and without knowing the weight of it- I have forgotten how I thought you ought to be.

No forgiveness, for here and now is my eternity. And I am happy to know that at this very moment. I am living an eternity in clarity.

Once - Lies.

ERWIN,

There are things I know that you don't know I know.

There are pains that you deal that you don't know I know you're dealing.

There are lies behind your smiles that you don't know I know exist.

And I chanced upon a part of our tower and found them festering it.

That's why we never stood.

No more permissions...

You are no longer my Ideal, spirit-looter.

Mind's Dictate.

Always above that of the Heart.

I have marked painful years on my slate... and in the middle of a cold drink, Clarity sat beside me and looked me in the eyes...

She said I suffered those years because I lacked foresight, rationality and had too many contradictions.

How wonderful to recapture those values I thought I lost or didn't have at all.

It is all so simple now. So simple.

Such simplicity allows me to be light-hearted everyday and to actually, as ought to be, know why I am so.